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Yesterday night I went for our Zone's very first Leaders Prayer Meeting of the year 2009. We prayed for our church, ministries, pastors, cell group and members. We need a vision for this brand new year ahead, thus we are praying for a vision, breakthrough and a mighty harvest this year 2009. And just about when we are about to end the prayer meeting, Bro Edmund gave an altar call for those who wants to be a Cell Leader in the house of God, i remembered a phrase that he said that impacted me, "even if you think you are not good enough, not adequate enough, God still want to use you.." these words are etched into my heart as soon as he finishes the sentence. Then he asked those who are willing to stand in front, i made my way down into the front and Bro Edmund laid hands on me. I fell under the power of God, i know i am lying on the floor and at the same time, my mind was filled with questions like; God, are you here? God, am i making the right decision? God, am i good enough for you? God, am i good enough to be a Cell Leader? God, will you help me? I was waiting for an answer, i thought i could hear it so clearly and i even thought the answer will be in the song during that moment of time, but i still did not get my answer, i was still waiting as i laid on the floor.

Then suddenly, without even noticing that the answer was already given to me just before i fell to the ground.

Astonishingly, i recalled so vividly at that point of time that just as i was falling down i remember that the last word that came out of my mouth just as i was falling down was "" always.."" I did not even know why i say that during that point of time, i just thought that i just blabber out a word. But nothing is by coincidence, nothing is by chance. So i take this word as my answer and..

God, are you here?
God, am i making the right decision?
God, am i good enough for you?
God, am i good enough to be a Cell Leader?
God, will you help me?



The answer to all of these questions is ""always...""